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Monday, December 31, 2007

guessed my blog had turned rusty.. haha.. been busy wif sch work for the past few months.. lotsa things happened in sch too.. i shall not mentioned anything tht happened as it happened for quite some times alreadi.. i'm having my holiday since the 14th of dec till now.. went for my taiwan trip on the 18th of dec to 23rd december wif my family.. how i wished i could stayed there for long.. i like the weather there.. most of all.. i simply loves their night market.. so many things to shop for.. especially the clothings.. but it was such a pity tht it's winter time.. so all the clothings were long sleeved and made of thick material.. but nevertheless.. i managed to get myself a pair of boots which i've yearned for.. we went to alot of place.. but we missed out alot of things too.. coz it was a tour package.. got limited time to shop ard.. argh!!! now i wished i could go back and grab more items.. and of coz.. we oso had our hot spring session.. and tried the egg tht were cooked by using the hot spring there.. it tastes great.. better den hard boiled egg.. lolz.. we oso went to taipei 101.. but nv went into the building as the tour guide said it's a waste of time.. so we oni took pic wif the tower.. was rather disappointed abt it.. will post some pic tht i've taken.. besides tht.. i've actualli hurt my spinal cord during xmas day.. haiz.. was celebrating at my da yi house.. felt a sharp pain in my spine just when i'm abt to leave my aunt hse.. but i didnt bother abt it.. thought tht it will be ok after awhile.. den went to mit dear.. when i'm leaving dear's place.. my spine hurts even more.. it was so damn pain tht i almost cant walk.. dear wanted to piggy back mi.. but i refused as i was wearing a skirt.. when i reached home.. i couldnt even slp at all.. dear was so worried tht he stayed and take care of mi.. i'm realli touched by it.. for the whole nite.. we didnt managed to slp at all as my spine realli hurt alot.. dear was too worried tht he dun dare to slp.. den the next day.. he accompanied mi to seek for treatment.. my dad drove us there.. i'm in a great pain tht i actualli cried out when the guy was adjusting my spine back to the correct position.. i wanted to gif up.. but dear encouraged mi and held my hands tight.. after tht.. dear accompanied mi home.. i feel tht i'm so fortunate to haf him as my bf.. coz whenever i needed him.. he was always there for mi to lean on.. i could see tht he was beri tired.. but he still insists to accompany mi.. to make sure tht i'm ok before he leave.. wif his care and concern.. the pain seems to subsides.. lesser pain.. though i'm in pain.. but i'm oso happy as my dad finally approved dear to stay over at my hse.. now.. my dad even allowed him to stay over once a week.. haha.. under his great care.. i believe i'll recover faster.. i just wanna be wif him everyday.. he made mi feels tht by marrying him.. i'll be the happiest woman of all the world.. i realli do cherish him alot.. no matter wad other ppl sae.. i just wished tht everyone would gif us their blessings..

these are some of the picture which i've taken during the trip

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3:27 AM
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007

been mths since i've updated my blog.. can see lotsa spider web and xiao qiang ard le.. lolz.. well.. for my frends out there.. just to update u guys of my recent life.. i've finally been enrolled into the course tht i've wannted to be in.. i'm current sch is college east.. studying beauty therapy course.. been busy studying for afew mths le.. now having my 3 weeks holidays.. haha.. of coz i made new frends.. they fun and so loving.. i just love to be wif them.. they'll share my problems.. my joy.. and oso tolerate my rubbish.. lolz.. i'm realli glad to haf known them.. in short.. they're my cutie pies in sch.. other den tht.. i'm now back together wif my bi le.. i'm so happy.. 1st time ever in my life i felt so blissful and fortunate.. time indeed fly beri fast.. 1 mth 3 wks and 4 more days to our 1 yr annivesary.. among all my previous bf.. he's the oni guy tht let mi wanna settle down.. he oni guy tht realli pampered mi like a lil princess.. whenever i'm angry or throwing my tantrum ard.. he always gives in to mi.. he's oso the oni guy tht wont pin out my mistakes.. i'm so attached to him.. without him by my side.. i feel so unsecured.. whenever this happens.. he will always assure mi tht he'll nv ever leave mi again like wad he did in the past.. right now.. i wanna tell the whole world how fortunate and blissful i am now.. this yr.. i'm finally enrolled into my desired course.. i passed my test wif flying colours.. i made alot of new frends.. most impt.. he's back to my side once again.. and our relationship have been improving alot alot more.. he treats mi better den the previous time.. i just hope tht everything will be smooth for the both of us.. i dun care wad others think or sae abt him.. in my eyes and in my heart.. he's just so wonderful to mi.. even if we haf to work extra hard to maintain our relationship.. i believe he'll always be there to go through wadeva obstacles tht's ahead of us

19.08.06 the day i'll always remember.. the day he became my man.. the love of my life

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6:26 AM
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Saturday, January 20, 2007

was busy these few days.. ever since he left mi.. all in my mind is work work work.. at least i wont think of him tht much.. as usual.. went to shop.. as cny is getting nearer and nearer.. we gotta rush alot of stuffs.. 4 more days to my birthday.. planned everything alreadi.. will be spending my sat wif my punk.. salena.. ying.. belinda.. jing xuan.. sunday wif my family.. and as for monday.. i realli hope tht he will celebrate or rather spend time wif mi.. anyway.. we close quite early today.. coz chiang kor kor got things to attend to.. we're going to dunno wad place coz chiang kor kor wanna "kai guang" for his new tua pek gong.. chiang kor kor told mi tht he'll be going too.. went to chiang kor kor hse as javier haf to slp.. den we went to the wu lu wu lu place le.. not long later.. he too reached the place.. kena disturb by lotsa ppl.. most of the time.. he was standing right beside mi.. but i cant hold his hand.. kinda miss the time back.. after tht went to the "dang ki" hse.. sherry jie jie told mi there was a time where he was looking ard for mi.. but i'm just sitting right in front of him.. haha.. kinda sweet.. i did a temp. perm today.. not beri nice.. coz the lady dunno how to style for mi.. he asked mi wad happen to my hair.. asked mi izzit kena burn by fire.. lolz.. he did tok quite alot to mi today.. den after tht went to pasir ris to haf our supper.. when i'm walking towards the coffee shop.. there's a fence in front of mi.. he called out to mi and asked mi to jump over.. he said tht he would be there to catch mi.. wad he said.. melted my heart.. i feel tht he's like hinting mi tht he wanna patch things up.. not oni i feel tht.. peeps ard us told mi he still loves mi.. he wanna patch things up.. but coz he initiated brk up in the 1st place.. so now.. he dunno how to approach mi.. at the coffee shop.. we were sitting beri clsoe to one another as there were 10 ppl sitting ard the table.. at tht moment.. i realli felt like holding his hands.. but i just dun haf the courage to do so.. alot of time i wanted to tell him i wanna patch up.. but there were just too many ppl ard us.. so i didnt voice out to him.. after supper.. went to shi fu hse.. didnt noe there's a pool of mud in front of mi.. just as i was abt to step on it.. he ask mi not to proceed.. ask mi to take the other route.. i'm quite happy.. coz.. at least he still cares.. and once again.. shi fu helped mi again.. haha.. went there for awhile.. den we proceed home le.. was so tired tht i fell asleep in the car.. chiang kor kor drop him first.. followed by xiao long and den mi.. once he alight the car.. i sms him if we could be back together again.. waited for quite awhile.. i'm scared.. i'm anxious.. and when i see the sms.. he told mi yes.. gd nite.. i'm so happy.. i just feel like announcing to the whole world tht we're back together again.. shi fu.. chiang kor kor and sherry jie jie helped mi alot.. without them.. i dun think i'll haf the chance to be by his side le.. haha.. 19.01.07 a new beinging.. we started off at the 19th of aug 2006.. ended at 25th of dec 2006.. now.. 19.01.2007.. we're back again.. i'll nv ever let him leave mi again.. even if he does.. i would go to the extra mile.. i would do wadeva i can.. to chase him back.. coz i noe.. he's da one for mi.. the guy which i wanna cherish through my entire life.. i realli do love him alot.. i just i wished tht i'll be able to spend my 20th birthday wif him.. i hope my wish will realli come true..

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6:06 AM
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Thursday, January 11, 2007

was quite busy these few days as CNY is approaching.. meaning more work had to be done.. lotsa order coming in.. got one fella ordered a minimum of 500 bottles of tart from us.. and another 150 bottle frm MOE.. haha.. think we're gonna haf nightmare bahz.. bday coming.. decided to book chalet.. but now.. still not free to book yet.. lolz.. gonna celebrate on the 19th to the 21st.. 3 days 2 nights.. haben realli plan well yet.. ever since we've broke off.. chiang kor kor and sherry jie jie has been helping mi.. supporting mi and accompany mi to walk through the darkest period of my life.. they created chances for mi to go out wif him.. help mi to meet him.. stuffs and tht.. dunno wad to sae to them except thanks.. i realli owe them too much.. but today.. something great happened.. was working when he smsed mi in the afternoon.. he said he did miss mi.. i missed him alot too.. i wanna tell him i wan him back.. but i cant.. i'm scared.. den later in the evening.. smsed him if he wanna haf supper together not.. he didnt reply.. after tht he called mi.. sounded beri happy.. he agreed.. i'm super happy.. it's like a new beinging for us i hope so.. finished work at ard 2 plus.. went to fetch him.. wanted to go to mandrian hotel for our chicken rice de.. but it was raining so heavily.. so we proceed to jalan basar.. when we reached our destination.. i alighted the car.. but den it was raining cats and dogs.. den he asked mi not to stand in the rain.. it was so sweet.. i noe he still cares.. when we settle down at our table.. he was sitting beside mi.. so close and so near.. i started to feel beri xing fu.. haha.. it was just like a dream to mi.. i dun dare to believe it.. though we didnt tok much.. but i noe he still care for mi.. his feelings for mi is still there.. but i'm just waiting for him to make the 1st move.. or rather should i be the one to bring everything back to the past.. can we still continue frm where we stop? can i still hold on to his hands tightly.. i wanna noe.. and i wanna be wif him.. i just hope everything will come true on my birthday.. my oni wish.. is to be wif him till eternity.. i just love him tht much.. and he's the one and oni guy tht i've ever wanted.. i miss him so..

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4:17 AM
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Saturday, December 30, 2006

24.12.2006

woke up at 2pm today.. den prepare and went to hougang mall as i wanna do some engraving on the lighter which i bought for dear.. after tht went to haf my eyebrow trimmed.. den proceed to chiang kor kor de shop as i'm baking a fruit tart for dear.. was raining so damn heavily.. den took a cab down as i was in a hurry.. reached there at ard 6 plus.. chiang kor kor sae tht we bought the wrong kind of peaches.. so he asked li sheng to drive mi to parkway de giant and buy.. finish baking the tart at ard 11 plus.. coz got alot of customers came to buy durian and log cakes.. after tht went to 717 to pick dear up.. followed by xiao long and sherry jie jie.. went to geylang to haf our steamboat dinner.. xiao long damn di siao siao.. haha.. bth him.. he's full of craps.. alot of rubbish frm him.. lolz.. after tht went back to dear's place at ard 5 plus in the morning.. it's a memoriable day for mi.. the best xmas eve i've ever been through.. the way he hug mi to slp.. the way he hmmm the song tht his mummy sang to him when he was still a lil child.. everything seems so sweet to mi.. dear even applied off to accompany mi even though he didnt realli get to slp..

25.12.2006

went home at ard 2 plus in the afternoon.. as my dad cant contact mi coz my hp was damaged.. took a bath and went back to dear's place to look for him.. reached dear's place at 6 plus.. den we went to orchard.. tht's the 1st time we took bus together.. the 1st time we took mrt together.. everything seems sweeter den before.. went to alot of shops.. dear wanted to buy mi stuffs.. but i refused.. coz i noe his situation.. went to wisma and had our dinner.. mushroom noodle.. my favourite.. it was my last dinner wif dear.. coz he told mi he's going back to malaysia soon.. we haf to brk off.. i told him i dun wanna be separated frm him.. he asked mi when am i willing to let him go.. i just wanna tell him i dun wan and dun wished to let him go.. dear said why not we stop till today.. 25th of dec.. xmas.. heaven playing some kinda jokes on mi?? i dunno.. my 2006 xmas present?? a brk up frm dear?? i just controlled my tears.. coz i dun wanna let him see the weak sides of mi.. i wan him to remember my smiles.. and not my tears.. i dun wanna let him feel tht he've hurt mi.. in fact he did.. he sae "wo men mei you jie guo de".. to mi.. if realli "mei you jie guo".. den wadfor in the 1st place u wanted mi to be wif u.. u took mi to heaven and kicked mi to hell.. i noe ur reasons.. i noe ur parents need u.. but wad abt mi.. i need u too.. i need u as badly as they do.. i've always thought tht we'll be together till the end of our life.. but now.. things aint the same anymore.. u've left mi alone.. alone to face the problem.. alone in my own world.. i feel like killing myself.. my heart is so damn pain.. i noe u felt the same.. how can i tolerate.. how can i live my own life without u.. we've been through lotsa ups and down.. y not this time round.. every frends of mine sae tht our relationship will not last.. i wanna prove to them tht they are wrong.. i wanna treasure u wif my whole heart.. yet u wont gif mi a chance.. u asked mi to look for someone better.. u might as well kill mi.. let mi die.. so tht i wont feel the pain in my heart.. till now.. whenever i return home frm work.. whenever i take the lift.. i see the flashback of u sending mi home.. when i look out of my blk.. i see the flashback of u sitting at the bus stop.. chiang kor kor said u still care abt mi.. do u.. i wanna noe.. i've been changing.. changing my temper and attitude.. just hoping to save our relationship.. i dun care wad others sae.. wad others think.. i just wan u to noe tht i cant live without u.. i wan no one else but u.. do u noe how i feel.. do u think it's fair to mi.. or rather it's fair to us? i rather u treat mi abit nastier.. am i realli wrong.. i just wanna share ur joy and woes wif u.. am i realli wrong to do tht.. we're both deeply in love.. but y cant we be together.. wad are u afraid of? i'm willing to go through any hardship wif u.. i dun wanna see u so xin ku.. so trouble and worried.. i dun care wad others sae.. but i wan u to noe tht wo fang bu xia wo men de gan qing.. wo bu xiang he ni fen kai.. wo hen nan shou.. wo hen xin ku.. wo yao he ni tao bai tou.. can we start all over again.. tell mi if i'm wrong in anyway.. but dun gif up on mi.. dun ignore mi.. dun treat mi like tht.. i dun wanna brk off.. 19.08.06 the day u woo mi.. 25.12.06 the day u gif up on mi.. 26.12.06 --> i wanna haf u back to my side.. now it's my turn to woo u back.. dun push mi to other guys.. i dun wan any of them.. i just wan u.. i just wanna spend my life wif u.. i oni wan to be wif LIAO ZHEN ZHONG.. not anyone else.. do u noe how i feel.. just gif both of us another chance.. hao ma? ur the 1st guy tht i realli wanted to stay wif.. shall we go back to the past? i wan u back so badly.. my dear.. take mi wif u.. dun push mi away frm u.. bu yao fang qi wo hao ma?

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4:30 AM
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Thursday, December 21, 2006

been to shop ytd.. was raining damn heavily.. haha.. even though i bought the umbrella wif mi.. it was totally useless.. lolz.. chatted wif leng soh for a while.. den went in to the shop to acc yee.. finally dear finish work le.. but he was drenched frm top to toes.. den sherry jie jie called mi see if we wanted to go down to their shop to help them wif the log cakes not.. and we did went down.. shared an umbrella wif dear.. went to the coffee shop to da bao dinner for chiang kor kor they all.. den after tht went to flag for cab.. but not really tht much cab are available.. lolz.. finally we managed to get one.. after reaching sherry jie jie shop.. we help out wif them lo.. done wif the work when it was almost 5am.. can see tht dear was so damn tired.. coz he was sleeping soundly when he's in chiang's kor kor car.. 1st time i see him slping in a moving vehicle..

started working at sherry jie jie shop today.. after work.. accompanied her to deliver durian and the log cakes to the customers house.. we chatted alot on our way to and fro.. mostly it's abt mi and dear's problem.. i told her i wont gif up.. and this time wrong.. i wanna let dear see tht i've realli grown up.. i started working and studying.. i dun wanna let him worry abt mi.. i wanna prove to him tht i can take care of myself.. i wanna let him concentrate on his career.. i dun wanna be a burden to him.. i hope he understands.. i hope there's still chances for us to remain like this forever.. xmas is ard the corner.. i decided to bake him fruit tarts.. and a puzzle for him.. the picture tht i've edited.. but i dunno if i haf the time to finish not.. coz now i'm working.. i haf lesser free time le.. which means.. lesser time for him too.. i kinda miss him.. dunno will we be able to celebrate the last xmas together not.. coz we'll be working on the 24th of dec.. kinda sad.. but after work i think i will still go down to find him.. coz i wanna cherish every moment tht i'm left wif together wif him.. i wanna settle down wif him.. without letting him to worry abt mi..

*dear.. i've grown up le.. dun worry abt mi.. i can take care of myself.. i haf a beri good grp of frends.. i haf my parents.. and i haf sherry jie jie wif mi.. i'll promise tht i wont quarrel or argue wif my dad.. i'm willing to do anything.. to change my attitude towards work and everything.. in order to be wif u.. i hope u'll trust mi and gimme time to prove it to u.. i wont be ur burden.. no matter how successful u are.. i just wanna be wif u.. just by ur side.. i lufe u..

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4:44 AM
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Sunday, December 17, 2006

just came back frm shop.. everything was fine till dear told mi tht he's very fustrated on our way back home.. i asked him wad happened.. he sort of refused to tell mi till i force him to.. he told mi tht his dad ask him not to work anymore.. asked him to go back to malaysia.. i dunno wad to tell him.. den chiang kor kor called him.. after tht we went up to the hostel le.. left dear's place at ard 2 plus.. while waiting for cab.. dear asked mi wad if he realli quit working.. at tht point of time.. i realli felt like crying.. i realli wanna ask him to stay.. but i noe i shouldnt be so selfish.. i shouldnt think only for myself.. we both kept quit for a moment.. den dear help mi to flagged a cab.. on my way back.. i smsed dear.. telling him i'll respect his decision no matter wad.. deep in my heart.. i wished i didnt send him the sms.. coz i dun wished to be left behind.. it's very contradicting.. i'm afraid tht when the next time we mit.. our feeling wont be tht close anymore.. not bcoz i dun haf confidence in him or in this relationship.. when i reached home.. dear smsed mi sorry.. i asked him why apologise to mi when he didnt do anything wrong.. den he called.. he said he knew tht i'm hurt and noe i'm crying.. yes i am.. but in front of him.. i cant let him noe.. coz i realli dun wished his decision to be affected by mi.. i realli wished tht he's by my side right now.. i used to be a very strong girl.. but i dunno wad happened to mi this time round.. i dunno wad to do.. i dunno which decision to make.. i dont wanna live my life without him by my side.. i admit i'm very dependent on him.. coz he let mi noe wad true love is all about.. he's always there for mi whenever i encountered anything.. he always there to support my decision.. he changed mi from a very bad tempered lady to a lady who seldom show her temper.. he changed my life.. he changed mi.. without him.. i wont be like wad i am today.. when i'm being bullied at work.. he would always listen to my complains and console mi after tht.. he's my everything.. why must all these things happen to mi and not others.. why am i the only one tht's facing all these shits.. why cant i be together wif the one i realli love.. why must we always be seperated.. why why why.. who can tell mi why.. wad's the reason behind all these.. dear said he didnt dare to tell mi as he's afraid tht i'll cry.. tht's why during when he's back.. the first few days he behaved so wierd.. so strange.. he said he dunno how to approach mi and tell mi this.. i understand the feelings tht he's feeling deep inside him.. and i'm glad tht he did spare a thought of my feelings.. but wad can i do.. will he stay if i asked him to.. izzit too much of mi to ask him to stay.. can i be selfish for just this time round.. i dun wanna be left alone again.. i dun wanna be seperated from him again.. should i tell him tht.. should i tell him my feelings.. these few days.. when dear didnt tell mi abt this stuff.. jing kept ask mi not to be sad.. asked mi not to chen qiang.. i was realli blur as i realli dunno wad she is implying to mi.. is this wad she's talking abt.. i'm beri confused.. i'm tired.. i no longer haf the energy to think abt anything.. i just wanna be with him forever.. i dun wanna be seperated from him.. is it realli tht difficult.. are we realli meant to be together.. dear.. will u stay if i asked u to.. will u be there for mi in future.. tell mi wad should i do in order not to affect u.. tell mi wad should i do to let u stay.. i realli need u.. and i love u.. can u allow my selfishness just to be wif u.. can u stay for my sake??

*another 37 days to my 20th birthday.. will u be here wif mi.. will u celebrate it wif mi.. i just wan it to be a memorial one.. i dun wanna spend my birthday alone again.. all i asked for xmas.. is to be wif u for the rest of my life.. u're my guardian angel.. no one can replace u in my heart.. when can all these things come to an end.. when will we be free frm all these problems.. when will the obstacles vanish.. when can we find our paradise.. a paradise which oni belongs to me and u.. nth and nobody else..

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3:35 AM
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Saturday, December 16, 2006

went to find dear ytd.. stay at his place ytd.. haha.. dad didnt call and kpkb.. i miss da hugs frm dear.. everything was so sweet ytd.. been a long time since dear hug mi to slp.. how i wish tht time would stop at tht moment.. but sweet time dun last long.. haha.. went home at 6 plus.. dear didnt slp at all.. hope he'll be more carful at work.. will be going for my e-Trial test later wif qin and jac.. jac mitting us at 1pm.. so early.. haha.. studied for the whole day today.. hopefully i'll pass bahz.. stupid kevin kept cursing mi.. i'll PASS tml.. haha.. prove it to him tht i'm more power den him.. lolz.. shit ass.. dear didnt call mi today.. think he's slping now bahz.. will be going over to shop later in the evening bahz.. after i've finish watch my xiao yu er yu hua wu que.. i love nicholas tse!! but i love my dear more.. whaha.. and lastly.. i miss my punk alot.. monday gonna meet them.. finally.. haha.. to register for our course.. all of them quitted their job.. while i'm looking for one.. haha.. looking forward to da big day wif my punk!!!

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3:06 AM
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Thursday, December 14, 2006

happy memories at the chalet

they are my everything

da 1st day when all of us are gathered together

a lifetime promise made specially to my punk

went to shop to look for dear today.. reached his house at ard 10.10pm bahz.. thought tht he would be back soon.. but didnt noe he work till 2am plus.. but still i waited for him to be back.. chatted wif ah nee at the living room.. talk abt lotsa stuffs.. mostly abt tht bitch.. haha.. she oso kena bullied by her sia.. wad to do.. lucky i'm no longer working there.. dear asked mi to stay at his place.. i oso got the intention.. coz i forgotten to bring my keys out.. and if i were to head back home.. i would haf to call either my mummy or daddy to wake up and open the door for mi.. but in the end.. i still decided to proceed home.. think my mummy placed the key at our secret place.. lolz.. reached home at ard 3 plus.. wanted to spend more time wif dear de.. but i can see tht he's tired.. so i went home earlier lohz..

went to check my frendster just now.. was so touched by wad ying ying said to mi.. i can swear tht i nv regret knowing them.. they're always there for mi.. especially when dear kinda neglect mi and when he wasnt by my side.. i just love my punk.. they are each so special.. i love the craziness frm them.. the jokes and the games.. everything tht we shared.. i kinda regret not being able to mit them when they asked mi out.. i wasnt there when they needed mi.. i'm so sorry.. but i'll try to arrange my schedule.. i just miss the time we used to spend together.. they are my precious my dear.. there are oni 3 things tht are in my mind right now.. 1st of all.. i love my punks.. 2nd.. i love my dear.. 3rd.. i love my family.. no matter rain or shine.. they are always there when i needed them da most.. thanks to them.. without them.. my life would no longer shines.. i wont realise how great it was to be wif them.. most impt of all.. my punk is my everything.. we would be able to go through any feng feng yu yu tht's ahead of us.. i miss ya lots

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7:00 AM
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006

was slping when i'm awaken by the sound of the thunder.. haha.. but nvm.. coz i haf to get up anyway.. watch yu le bai fen bai.. xiao zhu was so damn funny.. haha.. now i noe how to talk back to peeps when they scold @#%($^&#$.. lolz.. after tht had my bath and prepared my stuff.. wanted to go straight down to shop at first.. but den i wanted to get my facial product as i haf finished using it.. den mit yee at heartland mall.. got my stuff and proceed back to their hostel.. xiao bin they all were playing mahjong while i'm playing my bomberman on my hp.. lolz.. after tht went to yee's room to watch wei xiao pasta.. though i've already finished watching it.. but i got nth to do anyway.. so watch it the 2nd time lo.. after tht dear came in le.. finally he finished work liao.. this time round.. i guessed things started to get better le bahz.. we were somehow back to da past.. the way he tok to mi.. the way he care for mi.. it's wad i yearn for for a long time.. i realli felt the love tht he gave to mi.. though dear didnt say out the 3 words which i long hear.. but i noe he loves mi.. thinking back of da past.. those little things tht he did.. realli touched mi.. i wanna keep this feelings in my heart.. these little sweetness which he gave to mi.. though we cannot go out as often like wad an ordinary couple does.. i'm still very glad tht i haf him by my side.. even though we're oni together for 4mths.. i enjoyed my time spent wif him.. be it at shop or east coast.. it would always remain in my heart.. a place where i kept all our candies in.. 2 peeps and 1 heart.. tht's mi and u.. my <3

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6:26 AM
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Monday, December 11, 2006

da <3 of my life.. da man who loves mi for who i am.. da man whom i realli wanna cherish.. he's da one who gave mi love and let mi feel tht i'm being loved.. my prince

hope things will go out fine.. u're all tht i need.. i had nv ever love someone so much through my entire life.. i love u dear

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4:19 AM
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Saturday, November 25, 2006

finally back frm my cruise.. did really enjoy myself.. the food there were fantastic.. haha.. boarded the cruise on the 22nd.. after check-in.. went to our room to pack our stuffs.. den after tht proceed for our dinner.. haha.. after eating.. went to explore the cruise.. had our ktv session too.. it was so much damn expensive den singapore.. 30 bucks for 1 hour.. wtf.. and they didnt really update the songs.. no new songs.. they've oni got 2 pages of songs for us to choose.. haha.. after our ktv session.. wanted to go to the arcade to play.. but they were closing liao.. so bo bian lo.. went back to our room.. haha.. and guessed wad.. shirley fell down in the toilet.. lolz.. the most funny things was she fell down with her shorts undressed half way down her knee.. and she was kneeling down.. machiam praying like tht.. haha.. laugh till mad upon seeing her reaction.. haha.. after tht lights off.. didnt realli dared to slp.. those who noe mi well enough will noe.. and yes.. bingo.. i scare ghost.. lolz.. and am afraid tht the cruise would sink.. whaha.. watched too much titainic le bahz.. haha.. woke up at 7am the next morning.. went for our swim and jacuzzi session.. the water was so damn cold.. shirley was practially holding onto the railing.. haha.. bth sia.. the jacuzzi was so damn shiok.. but abit er xin.. coz got bangala smell.. i'm not being racist.. but realli.. qin sae the smell was so damn awuful.. haha.. swam for ard hr bahz.. den went back to our room for bath.. den went out for our lunch.. my dad and bro alight the cruise for the optional trip to KL.. while the rest of us stayed in the cruise.. went to the arcade.. haha.. played daytona throughout the whole afternoon.. haha.. think qin crazy for tht bahz.. she kept playing tht.. saying tht wheather we could pass our basic and final theroy would depend on tht.. lolz.. but i'm so damn fucking suay.. every car tht i chose.. halfway through the game.. the car will stuck down there.. nb.. so paiseh sia.. den there's this grp of chao ah lian.. so damn young oni.. i think ard 13 to 14 bahz.. so and spoil the gear.. cb.. the sight of them makes mi puke.. sucha disgrace to singapore.. keep diao-ing us.. wtf.. well.. forget abt them.. after tht we went for our tea break.. den proceed to our room for my nap while qin they all throw mi alone in the room.. heng they keep the light on.. haha.. arbo i sure scream when i wake up.. had my dinner at 6 plus.. after tht my dad and bro joined in as they've returned frm the trip.. after tht went to my parents room.. and the funny thing happened.. my bro and my sis kept going out of the room just to peep at the camp fire.. haha.. den the cute lady came chasing them.. just as i was abt to step out of the room.. some cb push open the door and rammed right onto mi.. the next moment.. i fell down to the floor.. nb.. i wanted to get up.. but tht stupid bro of mine simply kept pushing mi.. i was afraid tht he would step onto mi.. so i pulled his jeans to stop him frm running.. but he's so bastard.. he just jump over my body.. and the next moment.. shirley too fell down.. and this time she fell onto my left arm.. argh.. her body weight alone can squash my arm sehz.. haha.. and this fraggot qin was laughing like a humpty dumpty.. in fact my whole family were laughing like fuck.. tht includes mi.. den the lady kept knocking on our door.. inviting us to join in for the camp fire.. den this stupid qin open the door.. and the lady saw mi crawling up frm the floor.. think she was stunned bahz.. haha.. saw us laughing like fuck.. and there she was.. standing right in front of mi.. haha.. and qin told her i fell down.. idiot.. haha.. but nvm la.. we happy can liao.. lolz.. den after tht light off le.. woke up at 7 on the 3rd day.. went for our breakfast.. den after tht went ard to get our pictures taken.. den went back to our room to get our stuffs packed.. after tht check out le.. we were practically eating and slping while we were on the cruise.. haha.. can sae gain more weight le.. lolz.. didnt really felt tht happy though.. so near yet so far.. was hoping tht he'll sms mi.. but nope.. none at all.. am i the one tht's making a big fuss.. or is he the one tht have changed.. there were so many times tht i actually wanted to call him to tell him how much i miss him.. but i just cant bring myself to make the call.. i dunno wad to sae to him.. i dunno wad to ask.. everything seems to be changing.. there's this big gap between us.. sometimes i really wants a breakup since i dun haf any confident in this relationship.. not i dun trust him.. it's just simply i need some sense of security frm him.. alot of times i realli felt tht he dun care for him.. during my trip.. i nv receive any call or sms frm him.. am i the one tht had been changing?? i dun think so.. i just wanna go back to the past.. or should i sae we shouldnt be together in the first place.. guess oni qin noe how i feel..

*wo men de ai hai zai ma.. hai ke yi hui dao cong qian ma.. shi bu shi yi qie dou yi jing jie shu le.. gao su wo ni hai ai wo.. gao su wo ni hai xu yao wo.. gao su wo ni bu hui li kai wo.. ru guo zhen de bu ai wo.. gao su wo.. bu yao pian wo.. wo hui shi zhe qu jie shou.. wo hui fang ni zou =(

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3:57 AM
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006

will be going for my cruise later.. just done wif my packing.. i'm surely gonna miss all my punk.. life without them beside mi would gonna be boring.. dear still haben call mi.. wont be callin him anymore.. waiting for the unexpected.. today's my kor kee sian de bday.. haha.. time flies sia.. he had been my kor since i'm sec 3 till now.. already 4 yrs le.. lolz.. glad tht we're still in contact.. anyway.. i'm here to wish him happy bday.. 21 liao.. got golden key liao.. dun be a lolli kia liao.. time to grow up le.. lolz.. gtg le.. shall blog again when i'm back!!

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3:36 AM
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Tuesday, November 21, 2006

went to comfort driving center to book my btt wif qin and jac today.. haha.. must wait till next yr de jan den start.. lolz.. luck wasnt on our sides today.. lotsa funny things happened.. lolz.. first thing tht happened is when jac alight frm the bus.. den it started to rain.. haha.. mi and qin laugh till like dunno wad shit.. lolz.. wen to hougang mall for our breakfast before going to ubi.. after booking our btt.. wanted to go to tampines.. met a wierd uncle.. shit him.. haha.. den took bus 81.. the funniest things happened.. lolz.. the bus stopped as the traffic light turned red.. den guessed wad happen next.. whaha.. alelluia.. the bus break down liao.. haha.. qin damn idiot.. keep blaming mi and jac.. lolz.. coz we're the suay kia.. lolz.. was laughing throughout the whole journey.. lolz.. went to tampines as qin wanted to look for her tankini.. but didnt managed to find one which she's in favour of.. haha.. den went ard disturbing ppl.. bth sia.. but it was a fun one.. a fun outing wif them.. haha.. after tht went back to hougang.. coz i wanna haf my eyebrow trimmed.. den went to shop for kevin's present.. after tht went home le.. met zinzen today at tm.. haha.. he called mi cb cat.. makes mi kinda paiseh.. coz jac belongs to those guai kia type.. think she's kinda stunned bahz.. haha.. met alot of strange ppl today oso.. haha.. there's one auntie who was so damn kpkb.. den kept listening to wad we're talking abt.. stupid shit.. will be going for my cruise this coming wed.. will be back on friday.. den sat go escape.. shiok manz.. haha.. will be waiting for tht day to arrive.. hopefully wont rain.. dear hasn't called mi for 1 week.. was feeling kinda disappointed.. we seems to be drifting apart.. maybe bcoz of our distance?? i dunno.. lotsa things happened recently.. sometimes.. when i realli needed someone by my sides.. the flashback of xiong kept appearing in my mind.. i wonder.. did i realli make the right choice.. i dun wanna regret wad i've decided.. i'm someone who does not haf any sense of security.. he makes mi feel so unimportant to him.. qin told mi tht once the 3 mth honey moon pass.. everything's gonna change.. is there such a thing?? send a sms to him but he didnt reply.. called him ytd but he didnt ans.. he reject my call.. oni till 11.30pm den smsed mi "gang cai zhao wo you shi ma??" must i call him oni when sth happens?? we weren't like tht in the past.. wad happened?? can anyone tell mi?? is wad salena sae gonna come true?? when i replied him.. he didnt even bother to reply mi back.. just who am i to him.. i need someone to care for mi.. not taking mi for nth.. call mi as and when he like?? he promised to call mi when he's free.. dun tell mi he's realli so busy for the whole of this 1 week.. i dun like ppl to gif mi empty promises.. i hate it and cant accepts it.. i realli dunno wad to do.. i'm tired.. i just wished to lie in his arms.. but he wasnt here when i needed him so damn much.. i told him i'll be away frm singapore for 3 days.. but he didnt sae anything.. does it means tht he dun gif a damn or wad?? am i making a big fuss out of nth at all.. i'm so disappointed.. all i can do is to wait.. waiting for his call everyday.. but to no avail.. i'm tired.. i dun wished to be the one who often makes the first initiative to call, sms or meet him..

*wo lei le.. ni zhi dao ma.. wo men hai neng hui dao cong qian ma.. xiao rong mei le.. ju li you le.. kuai le ye zou le.. yi xin de deng dai que huan lai yi sheng de kong bai

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6:16 AM
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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

ytd was the last day of jiu wang ye's celebration.. it's finally over.. it was so damn grand sia.. haha.. so happening at punggol.. everyone was shouting "KIEW ONG TAI TI HUAT AH".. haha.. been vegetarian for 9 days.. haha.. it's strict vegetarian.. no eggs wadsoever.. haha.. even dear oso.. after everything had ended.. chiang kor kor and sherry jie jie took mi to geylang lorong 3 there to haf frog porridge.. the food there was so fantastic.. haha.. so shiok.. during these few days.. mi and dear hardly got the chance to tok.. the most.. we just glance at each other.. i used to think tht things haf changed.. till today when i went to 717 to mit dear.. i felt so lucky and fortunate to haf him by my side.. i miss his hug.. i miss the way he hold my hand.. those are the feelings tht i miss so much.. i felt tht we're closer together.. dear help mi comb my hair today.. really beri touched.. of all my 19 yrs of living on earth.. dear is the 1st guy or rather my first bf to comb my hair.. i wanted to tell him how happy i was.. but i lacked the courage.. i kept having this dream tht dear will leave mi someday.. even today.. cried 2 times today.. i told dear tht i'm so afraid to lose him.. but dear assured mi tht he'll nv leave mi.. this is the first time tht i felt so secured in a relationship.. he's always there for mi.. but sometimes i just feels tht i'm not needed and i'm not being cared.. maybe i expect too much from him.. but i just dun wanna lose him.. actually planned to spend the whole day wif him.. coz dear tml going back.. but shirley called and tell mi mummy fainted.. so i got no choice but to rush off.. this time round.. i dunno when i'll see dear again.. it's only in my dream den i could see him.. dear gave mi a hp strip.. he hung it on my bag.. haha.. so sweet of him.. i think tht's the oni thing i could hold in my hand when i miss him.. i love you loads